You win some you lose some

Of course I got my period this morning at 6am. I am not even upset about it. Maybe deep down I knew. This clearly is not the right time and I am ok with that. I'm not sure if I would be ok with having to wait another year, so January better be the month we start trying! I think every month I have that itch in the back of my mind thinking what if I am pregnant this month. I want to go the rest of the time not being obsessed with it. I have to trust God completely and just be a wife right now. Our time will happen.