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Patience is a virtue

the other night we were looking at dinning room tables and Brent brought up having a baby. This is exactly what I wanted the entire time, for him to bring it up. I have learned so much patience and have let go of a lot of things and gained trust in others emotions and thoughts. I was SO afraid that Brent never thought about having a baby and that he would never bring up the topic that it became all I would talk about and that was pushing Brent further away. So finally I let go of the control and Brent brought it up. What did he say? He said he is ready to try for a baby! That's right, we are trying for a baby this month! I am so excited and now nervous. Now I look back at what I should have gotten done before we start trying but I can't do that to myself. Look at what all iv learned! I just said I learned patience and the title to this blog is impatiently waiting. I'm no longer impatient and I'm no longer waiting to try for a baby. This journey has come to an end and now it's time for a new journey. The journey of trying to conceive. From this point it sounds more exciting than waiting to even try, but I don't know what lies ahead. I do know there will be a lot of life lessons and I am looking forward to see how much more I will grow as a person. I'm scared and excited, and if we've learned anything about me so far, I'm sure it will be another roller coaster of crazy emotions, fears, hopes, strategy, planning, timing, perfection, imperfection, and all the other crazy thoughts in my head. I hope the journey of trying is a short one with very few to no life lessons, and we skip right ahead to the pregnancy, but iv also learned i will miss out if I'm constantly looking ahead. I have to enjoy the highs and the lows of this process. Now that iv learned patience it's time to put it to the test.